Transient joy.

As much as i forsee things to come my way, depression seems to be always by my side. In the blink of an eye, I have been in ocs for almost 1 and a half months. Looking back, initially I wasnt really interested in OCS and just wanted to take anything that comes my way. However, now is not the case.. i must be more self motivated + disciplined in order to keep moving on and not disappointing friends and family.

I learned to utilize time in OCS effectively so as to meet impossible timings, and to take a step a day; each day. My aim for now is to learn as much as i can so as to maximize my time in OCS. While we yearn so much for bookout, it seems to short for us; especially after confinement and having another confinement again. Before i know it, I still have only a few more hours to book in and would have to face the harsh reality soon.

Nevertheless, I still have to face it and I am thankful for all the friends i have around me that have been supporting me all along. Hope I can survived this 10 days. wish me luck. ):

OCS.

Gonna get in tml liao.. suddenly miss my family and friends alot. Hope you guys will stay safe and happy..

Bye all!

Lucky or Unlucky?

Missed my passing out parade on sep 8 due to Influenza A. Abit of regretful not able to go out with my section ppl at all even tho we spend so much time together for the past 4 months. Been thankful and happy to be in Scorpion company for my bmt period.

Received my posting order yesterday and was abit shock at the results. I was posted to Officer Cadet Course (OCS) instead of SISPEC which is renowned for its xiongness. Have been really hesitant in going in OCS as i fear that i cant take the xiongness inside.. the thought of run up and down, changing parade, kena gan for every single thing. It sucks. While people are harping to go to OCS, i really wanna just a simple life. ):

3wks of confinement… bye ppl…

zzzz….

Reluctance.

FIELDCAMP

It wasnt fear or anything.

Its just unwillingness to leave my comfort zone.

What weak-willed human i am.

Thoughts of 2 wks confinement.

Not exciting.

Very.

Fear.

I fear of the unknown.
I fear of the dark.
I fear of the danger.
I fear of the anticipation.
I fear of the thoughts.
I fear of the unthinkable.
I fear of you.

060709

Hours later.. i would be back in tekong once again.. last week of extended training ends today.. Whats left would be the normal curriculum of BMT..

Felt that become a little bit “stupid” since i came out of tekong.. Thats what we call the tekong syndrome.. damnit. Became more and more bored of NS. When can i escape from this vicious routine? zzz.

Being dispatch to “S” coy in tekong.. “S” stands for Slack. Everyday can sleep, play, eat and exercise.. lmao.

Friends.. ask me out when i book out please.. i fking bored..

Enlistment! BMTC here i come!

A few more hours to enlistment into bmtc school 2 in tekong. All the friends, regardless poly or sec school have met 七七八八liao. Thanks for the HN group in poly to take the time to meet up for dinner and such.  To the level 6 ppl, you guys were great friends! I doubt i will ever regret joining that MP group, cus of that, i get to know you guys! To bertina, yuling, jarvis and alex.. Thanks for the lunch treat and chilling out in the middle of the night. LOL. My last night siol!  All my friends, please take care of yourself. All the “to be” enlistees, i will be waiting for you all in tekong chalet too! HAHA!

BYE MY GUITAR, ANIME,MSN,FACEBOOK,DOTA,HANDPHONE!!

NSmen!

The day of enlistment is drawing nearer and i’m starting to visualising the life of a NSmen. Recalling the memories of what little hardship i suffered in NCC compared to real National Service really makes me shudder and excited.

Anyway, as the days grew shorter the meetups with the poly friends and sec school friends became more frequent and have been eating “Good” foods this few days. Thank you all! (:

Tuesday was a tiring day, went to find Shawn and Alvin for shooting in the afternoon and waited to jam at 9pm. Meanwhile we went to Amk, Tiong Bahru and Bugis. Mahchiam half of singapore la siol.  Jamming with Shinya or luke’s band was quite a enjoyable one especially for the last session. We managed to cover all 3 songs; Chizuru, Haruka Kanata and White Prayer sucessfully and managed to review our mistakes.

Today woke up damn late, 4pm siol.. Wonder if i can adjust to 530am to 1030am in Army. Anyway, met up with Jarvis, Bertina and Yuling to eat at Sakura Thai HALAL Restaurant for “zhi char” then we went to Swensens for deserts. Thanks guys for the treat! (:                          Yuling! wheres the pic!! haha.

Grateful.

Had a dream last night. A friend of mine whom i have known for a number of years died just like that.. I even dreamt that i went for the funeral… The feeling of despair and loss of words for the sudden depart was horrible. Its so vivid that the first thing that i woke up was to check my msn and see if the person was still there.

I’m glad to be alive.

Despite all the barriers and encounters that i have to overcome..

I truly am.

Tekong!

Got my enlistment letter a few weeks back.. and its confirmed that i would be going for tekong chalet on June 11 ! Woots! Have been going gym alot and baito at baikohken! Have confirmed with baikohken that i would be quitting on May 15, which would be next week. So thats one less commitment and more time for training for napfa!! Now its shunny’s turn to work!! HAHA! Enjoy the sufferings of working!

Time passed damn fast, now to think of it.. after army would be coming out to work or uni already… God damnit. Go in army cannot guitar, msn, anime, go out with friends… Wa siannnnnnn.. Have been chionging Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn! recently and its getting better just as shunny said.. Should have chiong that damn thing earlier.

New ns uniform damn disgusting, some more got new armor, heard damn heavy.. sian..

Hope i can pass my napfa. Damnit.